Back in the day when I was young, I'm not a kid anymore but some days I sit and wish I was a kid again. . . . . (from the song Back in the Day by Ahmad)
A letter to my 18 year old self:
You just graduated from high school and have mixed emotions. You actually enjoyed school (mainly for the social aspect. . .even though you were really smart) but now that you've graduated things will start to change rapidly. Friendships you relied on will fade and your mom will increase your level of responsibility quite a bit. You'll be mad for a while and will think it's unfair but ultimately, it's the best thing she could have done for you.
SPOILER ALERT: You turn out pretty good- amazing even. . . .
But I would encourage you to be more present and stop forcing situations and people in your life that aren't meant to stay. Move on and don't waste your precious time. I should probably tell you to focus more on your education but if I don't know if there will be a butterfly effect and you end up not meeting your husband, which would be tragic because he's pretty awesome. And you might not have your children, they are pretty awesome too.
So, just enjoy your journey, be patient and stop being so hard on yourself! Your self esteem will take a hit in your early 20's but just get back up and next time remember to bob and weave. . .bob and weave. Don't regret anything that you experience because it is all helping you to be the person you will ultimately become.. . .and I told you: she's amazing!
Love you to infinity and beyond,
(When you see Toy Story you'll get it)
(This post is part of the HTXAAB September blogging challenge)
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